Lovely Day: Part 2

Maaga na akong gumising ngayon. 6:30 am pa lang nagbabasa na ako ng mga mails ko sa inbox. Nakapagsisimula na rin akong magsulat inspired ng mga pira-pirasong eksena ng aking panaginip kasabay ng paglusot ng liwanag sa mga blinds ng bintana. Habang buhay na buhay ang aking dugo at  kailangan ma-divert ang kundisyon ng katawan sa mas makabuluhang gawain at pahupain ang paninigas ng ilang parte ng aking kalamnan. Ayon sa pag-aaral, sign of ageing daw ang paggising ng maaga epekto ng nagbabagong body clock. Hindi ko ma-digest ang study na iyon. Porke nag 33rd birthday, may sign of ageing na agad? ‘Di ba pwedeng marami lang ang kumakatok sa bahay ko para bumili ng yelo?

It was a year ago ng sinabi kong may good news akong natanggap at nag-celebrate ako noon posting a music video. Well, it’s still a lovely music video and will always be. Pinilit kong ma-inspire noon at nagtagumpay naman ako. I just have to go through difficulty which I know is normal. My mode of survival never let me down. I just keep on getting better in many aspect of my very challenging yet fulfilling life. Let me go back to that date and transcend to where I am today. Time check – switch on.

2012

·         February – I was terminated from my job. I thought it was a lovely opportunity for me to find a better one. I wasn’t happy with my relationship with my boss and not with my job. Hindi lang talaga ganoon kadali makasundo ang isang among mas immature pa sa zygote at mas insecure pa sa taong tinubuan ng mukha sa tigyawat. Nothing is perfect except the word itself. Nothing and no one can put me down kapag prinsipyo at pagkatao na ang pinag-uusapan.

·         March   – I moved to a new place with a very good friend who eventually became the best roomate ever. Santa Claus lang ang peg ko sa dami ng gamit na kailangan kong iwan at ipamigay dahil hindi ko na kayang dalhin ang mga iyon. Masyadong malayo ang nilipatan kong bahay at mahal ang bayad sa transport service. Kulang ang isang dump truck sa dami ng gamit ko. Joke. Mas nakakapagod kasi ang mag-ayos ng gamit sa bagong bahay kesa sa magligpit nito at maglagay sa sako.

– Dito ay nagsimula na rin akong maghanap ng bagong trabaho kasabay ng pagtitipid ko dahil wala akong aasahang sweldo. Hindi biro ang mawalan ng trabaho sa abroad. Wala kang ibang aasahan kung wala kang kamag-anak na pwede mong utangan sa oras ng kagipitan. I was blessed enough to have found friends who treated me family. Hindi man nila ako tinulungan financially but they were there to support and help me find a new job. I only needed a kick, confident akong tao. Chos.

·         April – As usual it’s my birthday month. Yearly talaga ‘to. I was not in any mood to celebrate. I just panned to go to church and give thanks to the Lord for another life that He has given me. It’s a sign that my life is still worth the fight after all I’m going through. It’s very much easy for someone to be depressed by the situation but I am strong enough to overcome it. Sanay akong hindi maghanda pag birthday ko. Mas nade-depress ako knowing na tumatanda ako. Pag-uwi ko ng bahay, tinawagan ako ng best roomate in the world at inutusang magluto. May dadating daw siyang mga bisita. So harsh. But wait, umuwi siyang may dalang birthday cake for me. So sweet. It was still but a happy birthday to me!

·         May, June, July, August, September – My job hunting continued to paddle. I got a few jobs but wasn’t enough to sustain an ambitious lifestyle. I have to seek harder and strive better. Wala akong ibang pinagkaabalahan sa mga buwang ito kundi ang maghanap ng matinong trabaho. Muntik na akong mag-masteral sa pagiging tambay. Napaputi ko ang lahat ng mga damit ko dahil natutuo akong magkula at magbabad. Natuto ako ng ibat-ibang luto ng manok. Not bad. I almost had a cookbook written for chicken recipes.

·         October – I found a job, alas! Salesman ng water purifiers and the likes. Maganda ang sweldo at isa siyang brand new experience for me. Natuto ako ng maraming bagay about the technology of it and the matters about water. Hindi lang pala siya basta tubig, maraming elements involved. Feeling engineering student lang ako.

              – Actually, it’s not just all about having a good paying job that’s important to me. It’s the pride that someone believed in me and trusted me to a new job I don’t have any idea about. He was willing to teach me and looks forward on making me an expert. Unfortunately, my old evil boss was wicked enough to file a case against me and made me unable to renew a working visa. I had no choice but to deal with it because I have no f*cking time to deal with the son of a bit*h.

·         November – I travelled back home. I felt ambiguous. I can’t simply realize the sudden twist of events. I almost had it. Then I thought, what’s bad about going home and see your folks? It’s been two years since the last. I had a clinch of excitement running into my system. I finally had a chance to visit my mom which I never had since the time she left us for good. Now everything seems to be perfect. Everything is falling into places.

·         December – This is the best holiday I ever had for the past eight long years. Ngayon lang ako ulit naka-amoy ng tinutustang puto bumbong at nakalanghap ng plastic scent na ginagamit sa christmas decorations na nakapalibot sa buong bahay. Ngayon lang ako ulit nakapag-simbang gabi and I so missed it! Iba ang dating ng mga christmas songs dito sa Pinas kesa sa abroad. May something na nakakakiliti.

2013

·         January – Of course, perfect din ang pagpasok ng new year ko. Nakalimutan kong lahat ng pinagdaan ko. Everything is fresh. Ito na ang pagkakataon kong magsimulang muli and I am so damn looking forward to it. Parang nanggigigil ako. I already had visions of how my life’s gonna be dito sa Pinas. I can’t wait to settle again. I wanna make it bigger this time around.

·         February – I suddenly received calls from various employment agencies. Gusto daw nila akong magtrabaho sa abroad. Doon daw ako bagay. Now, I am having a dilemma. Ano ba talaga, koya? Nakakalito ang mundo. Kung sinong mahal mo, siyang ayaw sa ‘yo. Huh? It’s not an easy decision to make, but I have a lot of reasons to convince myself to make it all fair and just. Gumaganon? I have to admit, masayang magtrabaho dito sa Pinas kasama ang mahal sa buhay na sa kalagayan ko ay matagal kong hindi nakasama. Araw-araw ko silang nami-misss noon. Pero hindi kayang punan ng pagka-miss ko ang ambisyon kong magtayo ng isang malaking theme park for dino malicioso avid fans. Great opportunities strike only once and I just can’t let this one go. To make a long maarteng story short, tinanggap ko ang offer sa akin to work as an Executive Secretary for a CEO of a certain fishing company in Oman. Anong sey nyo?

·         March – I had an ample time to spare. Sinulit ko ang mga panahong maaaring hindi na dumating sa buhay ko kailanman. You would never would know? Redundancy is not a rule in life for me. I should not go through the same shit again because I already learned from it. Here goes my sentiment for this month – nag-spelunking ako sa kabundukan. Check it out - The Dolores Adventure

·         April – I am now on my way for medical tests and all the other shitty requirements I have to fulfill. I am praying very hard na pumasa dahil hindi ako nakapag-review para sa mga tests na ito. It is also my birthday month. I wish my self the best of luck.

Lovely Day Part 2 ang post na ito. Kailangan may theme song din. Maraming beses kong narinig ang kantang ito and the melody struck me like lightning in the ass. It’s a theme song from a movie called Over the Top. The movie tackles about not giving up a fight. Swak ba? Here it goes, enjoys!