Timecheck

I'm almost done here. A few more weeks and I will be jumping into another city. Jumper? Actually, I will be going back to the old city where I used to be. I hated it being there so I kinda feel bad moving back. It's so negative for me thinking about "moving back". It gives me a clinch of the old me that I don't even want to remember. Basta sinabi ni boss na I have to go back, then I have to go back. Hell the clinch. Ano nga ba kasi 'yun?

I didn't realize how time really flies. So fast I couldn't catch it and buck. Parang nanghuhuli lang ng tutubing karayom sa bukid. Habol ka ng habol hanggang sa hindi mo naman mahuhuli tapos putikan ka pa sa bandang huli. So unfair. I got so occupied by my work and stuff and wasn't able to fulfill my plans I laid out first thing before I moved in here. It was bad as it sounded unfulfilled. But, it was good though since something has been done not as bad as how I expected it to be. What a cliché. Ako na ang may positive outlook sa buhay. Me already!

Anyway, wala namang importante sa post ko na 'to aside from I want to be cognizant of and put down into notes the major episodes of my life here in the desert island. The small details, I keep to myself, hihi. I'm making a checklist to know whether I'm still on good track and hope to transcend for a better one. Time check starts now.

▼ 2011
     ► May - It was a new job and I was succulently fresh. Ang masama naman ay halos lahat ng makaka salumuha ko araw-araw sa trabaho ay mas matanda pa sa nanay ko. No kidding, at least the way they look. Matanda na nga sila and still they act like such a grumpy grandma. Tama si Bob Ong and I quote - "Makakapili ka ng lugar na uupuan mo, pero hindi mo mapipili ang taong uupo sa tabi mo." Sounds bitter but makes sense. I so hate Bob Ong. Joke. I have no other choice but to get along with them. For the benefit of my job and my job alone. I don't care about them. Matatanda na nga sila 'di ba? Good thing hindi nila dala ang pang-gantsilyo nila sa trabaho at gawing past time during break time. Si ate at ang mahiwagang gantsilyo. Umay much.

Sa buwan na ito naisip kong magpahaba ng buhok. Maiba lang.

    ► June - Birthday ni ex so busy-busihan ang drama ko pero patay malisya pa rin akong nagtanga-tangahan kunwari namisdialled ko ang number nya then mega birthday greeting ako to her and my surprise. Baduy na obvious pa. Tsk tsk. Naglasing-lasingan ako buong gabi.

The saddest time of my life so far has arrived. Ang lagi kong iniisip na mangyayari at lagi kong pinaghahandaan ay sumapit na. Inasahan kong dadating ang oras na iyon sa 'di ko inaasahang panahon. So, I was a little prepared too. Ang gulo 'di ba? That is because it was the sudden death of my most loving, hard-working, understanding, jolly, cute nanay. She passed away of diabetes she's been fighting for years. Happy and sad at the same time. You can do the math. It was more sad though dahil hindi ako nakapasok ng dalawang araw na ang tangi kong ginagawa ay ang umiyak. Wala akong kadamay ng mga panahong iyon dahil bago lang ako sa lugar na ito. Things got tougher knowing that I can not leave my damn work to see my nanay for the last time. Salamat na lang sa skype at nakita ko sya ng buong tapang at salamat din sa lahat ng mga kaibigan at katrabaho kong nagbigay ng tulong sa abot ng kanilang makakaya. I know her soul is in peace now watching all of us from the heaven. I truly miss her everyday of my life that I can't even start writing about her until now. I love you nanay, so much...

At patuloy ang pagpapahaba ko ng buhok...

    ► July - Nasira ang video card ng laptop ko for the nth time. Dinala ko sya sa repair shop and I have decided to pay like six thousand worth of money in pesos sign. Kailangan kong maghintay ng ilang linggo para magawa ang lovable laptop ko so I have to know what else I could do dahil hindi ako makakapagsulat gamit ang mga papel at pluma. So, I enrolled myself in snow boarding lessons. Sa disyerto? Hallucination ito? Hindi, nagjo-jogging lang ako while reading books. Ignis fatuus, go!

Nagkasakit din ako sa buwan na ito. Naisip ko lang dahil yata sa pagpapahaba ko ng buhok.

   ►August - It's the hottest, scorching, most humid, blister-causing season of the year here near the equator. Kumapal ang balakubak ko mas makapal pa sa buhok ko. I have to find ways to get rid of the itchiness and flakes. Siyet. Sana naging skyflakes ka na lang, nabusog pa ako. Pero ang buwan na ito ay isa sa mga pinakamahalagang panahon sa mundo ng pagtuklas at siyensya dahil napag-alaman ko na ang pH care, yes pH care na ine-endorse ng mga magagandang babae sa tv na panghugas sa kanilang keps ay isa rin palang mabisang solusyon sa nangangati kong anit. Ginamit ko 'yung kulay lavender dahil mas tipo ko 'yung amoy. I always feel that my head is somewhere between the legs and in the middle of the forest finding that hole ready to be dug some more. Love it!

Lesson: Long hair + Balakubak = Eeeww!

   ►September - Nagsimulang magkaroon ng interruption of peace sa aking trabaho dahil sa lumalaking populasyon ng mga insekyorang camel sa paligid ko. I can't help it. I'm irresistibly absorbing. And so again, I simply thought of Bob Ong to promote peace and order and I quote - "Kung sa tingin mo naloko mo ako.. nag kakamali ka.. kasi ikaw ang naloko ko..pinaniwala kita na naloko mo ako (evil laugh -bwahaha)." Peace on planet of the apes is restored.

Nagkasakit ako ulit. pesteng buhok 'to!

   ►October - Ito ang huling linggo ko sa lugar na ito at masho-shock ang landlady ko kapag sinabi ko ito sa kanya. Lols! It's not my fault, it's my boss'. Ipasa ba? Kasi naman mahihirapan ulit sya sa paghahanap ng bedspacer pag alis ko. Apektado na ang budget, nawala pa si pogi hehe. Nagpagupit na kasi ako. Well, that's life. We simply go through sudden changes that simply rocks our ship. In her case as well as in mine. Kanya-kanya lang 'yan ng pinagdadaanan. I only have two words to say - accept and act. Check!

So, it's time for me to pack or should I say, re-pack my things and get ready to roll again. Ito lang ang isa sa mga pinagmamalaki ko sa sarili ko. I always make myself ready for anything that could happen. I always look at the positive side of things that's coming especially the shocking ones. Wala ng lugar ang mga butterflies sa stomach ko every time I feel discomfort. Manhid na ako sa mga sitwasyon na sinusubok ang tatag ko. My secret is - I always keep a big smile on my face and not let myself get feigned because I always let God work his ways on me. I guess with my nanay and God working together to guide me out  - I would always be on the right track. Amen.

Another year is about to come but like change, it doesn't have to be new.
What's important is that you have to know what you gotta do.