Feeling The Moment

June ngayon. And so? May kaibigan akong ang lakas ng trip isabay ang kasal niya sa gastusin ng enrollment at regular visit ng mga tropical depression. Abala ang paghahanap ng regalo at costume para sa reception. Kailangan rain proof especially the shoes. Nagco-commute lang kasi ako. Makulimlim man ang kalangitan, hindi sila napigilang mangarap. Naniwala silang “June bride is a dream wedding come true”. Ang masasabi ko, “Some brides are married to Chuckie”. May mga bride na hindi inakalang kinasal pala sila sa puppet ng demonyo.

Sa aking pag-iisa, 25GB yata ng porn ang napanood ko. Don’t get me wrong, I’m practicing celibacy. Hinanap ko ang sex scandal ni Hayden Kho featuring Katrina and Maricar. Gusto kong alamin who’s husband is merrier now, Richard Poon or Kris Lawrence. In the kindest of my heart, I realized the possibility that the videos thaught them who fits who. I have high regards for Hayden Kho, being an instructor made him, not a doctor. Despite of the shocking history, Katrina and Maricar were two less lonely people in the world.

Ginanap ang kasal last week. My bestfriend’s brother’s wedding in CamSur. Ginawa nila akong photographer. Sayang ang costume ko. Nakausap ko ang groom sa bisperas party ng kasal. Nag-usisa ako. Tinanong ko siya kung sino ang nagtulak sa kanya sa kumunoy ng pagpapakasal. Simple lang ang sagot niya. Grade 1 na ang anak nila. Walang nagsabi sa akin na anak pala nila ang inutusan kong magsibak ng yelo para sa beer ko. Hindi lasing si kuya pero hindi na siya nagbigay ng iba pang dahilan. Pagkaubos ng isang kahong red horse, tumayo na siya sa inuman at natulog. Ayaw daw niyang ikasal ang fiancee niya sa mukhang nalunod sa kumunoy. Lumipat ako ng kampo, tinanong ko si ateng bride. With the same question, she answered me in a slightly sober way.

There’s no single formula to come up with a perfect relationship. Nagduda ako. Dun ko lang kasi narinig naginglish si ateng bride. Imposibleng may ESWD Syndrome (English Speaking When Drunk) si ate dahil hindi rin siya lasing. Nagpaliwanag siya. Nag-expound. Hindi ko pa rin naintindihan.

Sa ikagagaan ng aking kalooban, susubukan kong gumawa ng formula ng love potion for everlasting love. Sa totoo lang, kailangan ko itong malaman kung meron sakali mang ma-in love ako ulit agad agad. Dahil ako mismo ay may pinagdadaanan. Malungkot talaga ako ngayon. Sobra. At seryoso. Seven years akong single and when I finally found someone, di man lang nagtagal ang relationship ko ng seven months. Whattasheym. I feel expired already.

My other bestfriend, google, was there to help me. Nag-search ako ng top love quotes and it gave me everything I hoped for. Baka sakaling maintindihan ko ang tunay na kahulugan ng love at kung bakit masakit, masakit ang loob ko sa nam-break sa akin. Or one bitch will soon gonna die.

Google top quotes:

• ·         “ Love is blind. ”

-     Matagal na. Kahit laser surgery hindi na siya makakakita. Overrated. Cliché.

 

• ·         " The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart. " Hellen Keller

 -       Haller, kung hindi kayang manlibre ng sine o siomai, walang pumapansin. Hindi kasi nakikita ang goodness ng heart at first sight. Kailangan may porma. Kailangan mapa-siklab. Kailangan loaded ka at well-budgeted. Love at first sight my ass.

• ·         " We begin to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. "

 -       Like in fairy tales. Where the frog becomes prince by a kiss and quasimodo is full of admirers in spite of being kuba and all. I don’t live in the fairy world. Sa tabi kami ng riles nakatira.

• ·         “ If you love somebody let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don’t, they never were. ”

 -    Hindi pa siya bumabalik. Irrelevant. Next.

• ·         “ If you judge people, you have no time to love them. ”  Mother Theresa

 -       I’m really sorry Mother. Judgemental po akong tao. Not gonna work.

• ·         “There is no remedy for love but to love more. ”  Henry David Thoreau

 -       Ang remedy ko, baso at beer na may yelo. Inum na lang natin yan dre. Kanta ka, To Love You More ni Sarah.

• ·         " All you need is love. " John Lennon

 -       And you didn’t believe it yourself, Sir John. Your wife was never really all you needed. Hirap maconvince coming from you.

• ·         “ Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies. “ Aristotle

 -    It’s always been science to you, man. Get real. Two bodies can’t have one soul. Duh.

• ·         “ I love you, not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. “ Roy Croft

 -       Ginamit ko 'tong pick-up line. Waley. Forward ko na lang daw ang quote sa bestfriend ko.

• ·         “ The greatest thing you ever learn is just to love and be loved in return. ”  Nat King Cole

 -       Great song from a great singer. Kakantahin ko na lang ito sa next session ng inuman namin ng tropa. Hindi ko pa ‘to naramdaman kaya hindi ko alam kung totoo.

Speaking of great songs, heto ang bagong theme song ng puso kong bigo. Feeling the Moment by Feeder. Dito umiinog ang vocal cords ko sa panahong ito.

 

Wala sigurong formula. Love and hate. Kambal yan. Parang si Richard Gutierrez, hindi niya kayang itakwil ang kapatid niyang si Raymund kahit pa mas malusog ito sa kanya at mas fashionable. Kaya nga tinawag na break kasi masakit. Kung cake, masarap.

I am celebrating my singlehood again. Hew! Like I really want the world to end now.

More quotes:

The course of true love never did run smooth.

William Shakespeare

If love be rough with you, be rough with love. Prick love for pricking you and beat love down.

William Shakespeare

It is best to love wisely, no doubt; but to love foolishly is better than not to be able to love at all.

William Makepeace Thackeray

The hottest love has the coldest end.

Socrates

I must forget how good it tastes,

And how beautiful were the days.

Cos the bitterness is worse

than the happiness it caused.

The fact that I know,

it’s better that I let you go.

Dino Malicioso